I never really knew what the situation was or if it was just a trial separation.

And do you mean am I having regular sex?

Yes to both I suppose? lol.

You don’t need to zip your mouth lol.

I mean kind of lol. He does every time. I also love him even though we’re broken up. Like beyond anything romantic even, he’s my best friend and I will always love and care for him so the sex is always going to have that added emotional layer. But yeah I mean I don’t have to coach him or ask to cum or do anything special to make it happen. There’s a level of sexual chemistry that I have only experienced with a few other people

I think it’s a few things. Corey wasn’t the first person to make me squirt, but he was the first person to make it happen consistently. Sleeping with you and Kalea for the first time made me squirt a ton without having cum at all, which is an achievement in itself. But you didn’t really ever do anything to try and make me cum other than fuck me. I got pretty close when kalea ate me out, but being fucked is the least likely way to make it happen. I need to be fingered, eaten out, teased, etc. Just being fucked isn’t gonna make it happen, no matter how much I love someone, even with Corey. I can cum and squirt just rubbing my clit in about 10 seconds if I want and if I’m horny enough

You told me you didn’t do scenes?

Also, with most men, if I sleep with them 3+ times and it doesn’t happen, I move on. And I hold Doms to a higher standard. I felt like I was beholden to a lot of rules and standards myself and having to sort of blindly trust you (bc it had only been a week) and then I’m also not cumming. To me, getting out a toy is easy. I shouldn’t have to ask. Not after a few times playing. Not that I didn’t enjoy myself, cause I definitely did. At the end of the day I enjoy pleasing, I’m a sub after all, but I still want to be rewarded.

Cause I don’t, but also I’m human. Ofc I want to cum. But I don’t want to be like, “hey why aren’t you doing what you can to make this happen?” It’s an awkward thing

I get all that. And I wasn’t even necessarily fixated on cumming, but we just got on this topic earlier cause you asked me if me sleeping with my ex was about cumming

I mean yeah I know all that too. This is part of why most of the time when I have fulfilling sexual encounters, they’re with queer people/women/bi men, etc. Cause it’s not focused on penis on vagina sex. It’s outside the box. It’s not a mechanical list of stuff you check off boxes on.

I didn’t realize you viewed it as me leaving you. I think I didn’t realize how quick you fall into a dynamic with someone and how serious that is for you. It takes me longer to get to that place. Corey was never bad in bed. He just didn’t want to be in bed enough for my sex drive

I didn’t mean to send that as a video oops lol

Idk I just kinda got the vibe that y’all wanted a fully single and detached from anyone version of me who is ready to dive in 24/7 dynamic style. Like even when I was gonna stay there that week you said, “well you’re moving in” and in my head I was like, “am I???” lol. And maybe you didn’t mean that literally, but I take everything literally cause I’m probably autistic or something lol

I guess I just felt like there was a lot of finality to our discussion after I had slept with Corey so I was like, “why discuss further if they’d like to move on”

I will say, she does tend to explain better and understand me explaining better 🤣

Very true lol

Maybe that is part of my issue, I felt like sometimes you weren’t getting me or hearing me 😅

I also felt like you were juggling a lot of

Maybe it was just the timing of when we met

I mean, like I said I spilled my guts that night and it seemed like the next day the consensus from y’all was that we weren’t a good fit and I honestly didn’t disagree with that

I will say, I’m not really a fan of some of the stuff you said last night. Including in the message you deleted. I’m not like super mad or anything, but I felt like I was getting emotionally jumped lol. I don’t say “lol” to like diminish what I’m saying, I just don’t have a better way to describe it.

Idk like I said, I told you and Kalea everything I was feeling that night, I have a longer processing time than other people I think. When I get bothered by something it takes time for me to acknowledge that feeling, where it’s coming from and why, how to bring it up in a conversation in a way that makes sense to the other person, etc. So yeah it took me a min, but I eventually shared with you both exactly how I felt about the week I spent with you guys. Then a few days later we had that long conversation on telegram about how it just wasn’t a good fit dynamic wise. And I fully agreed, I felt like it was better if we didn’t continue any kind of dynamic bc I think we’re looking for different things in that respect. And I thought it all ended on good terms, but you seemed very unhappy out of nowhere last night and I’m just a bit taken aback and confused by it.

It was very condescending

Sorry just saw this

I didn’t really know where things stood after the last message I sent cause I never heard anything else

It’s ok, I also have been slow to respond the past few days cause of work stuff

It’s intense. I go back and forth between working in the kitchen and running front of house and sometimes we get slammed. But I really like most of my co-workers and the managers are a really cool gay couple who I think I’ve won over at this point so that’s cool

Do you guys want to?

Glad I caught this while on my break lol

Cause I actually got to watch it

I’m at my pizzeria job so no phones on the floor

You didn’t make my uncomfy

Yes I did

I’m down to hang, I’m just confused again like the other night cause I thought we weren’t doing any of this and we were all gonna be friends? lol

Like genuinely I do not understand lol

Wait asked who what?

Asked me what though?

Ohh well you had just asked if I wanted to hang out again

I guess I didn’t put it together that you asking if I wanted to hang again and then sending me that video meant you were asking me if I wanted to hook up with you guys again just without the dynamic aspect. I need things spelled out for me most of the time

It’s ok, I’m usually high at night too