SMSSome other thoughts:
I honestly think this goes much deeper than kink, sexuality, or choosing between two women. I think this is about identity, emotional development, feeling alive, masculinity, structure, and the split between freedom and adulthood.
When we spoke about you at 17, it really hit me how much instability, loneliness, lack of guidance, loss, and emotional abandonment there was at such an important age. That’s still a very young age psychologically. Boys still need direction, support, grounding, emotional presence, structure, and help becoming men.
I think different relationships activate different parts of you.
Your marriage probably represented:
structure
adulthood
stability
routines
functioning
grounding
health
responsibility
At the same time, I completely understand how part of you may have experienced that as emotionally heavy, disconnected, pressured, sexless, restrictive, or dead over time.
Then this other relationship may represent:
freedom
sexuality
rebellion
intensity
feeling desired
emotional escape
feeling alive
less pressure
less expectations
less judgment
What concerns me is not your sexuality. What concerns me is the decline in overall functioning:
sleep
work
motivation
routines
structure
finances
health
emotional regulation
consistency
fatherhood
That tells me this is much bigger than sex.
What really stood out to me in session is how much you shifted when you connected to the stronger adult self. Your whole energy changed. You looked m
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